Whoa there, old blog!
Hey boys and girls of the future!
My last post was way over a year ago... and it was a pity-me post! That is so lame.
This is 2012, and things are way better. I've got a job as a Children's Minister up here in Papillion, Nebraska. I'm loving the work I do... the Lord's work... and getting to minister to kids. My wife and I are great. We have a pup-dog, Maebe, who is the best dog in the world! She's only peed in the house EVERY DAY!
Life is good.
God is good.
I am weird, emotional, and stupid. I'm glad that God is God, and I am not.
That is all for now. I should revisit this site in 2 years, based on my math skills.
clint
The Waiting Game
The waiting game isn't the game most people want to play. Why is it even called the "waiting game"? I don't want to play. I want to play the "I'm not waiting" game. That sounds more fun.
I have been waiting for quite a while for a job to pop up, a church I can go work in, a ministry I can build up, tear down, rebuild, create, anything... just a chance to succeed and a chance to grow. I haven't been given that opportunity, and it's bothering me to the point where I'm venting to no one in cyberland.
Here it is, March 28th, the time where I should be interviewing left and right for jobs all over the country... and yet, here I am, playing this boring game. I feel like I am ready to begin my own ministry, at my own church... where I'm not an intern for the 5th time. I have the experience. I have the passion. I have the energy. I have the time. I just don't have a job.
I understand the importance of patience, and how this causes me to slow down and ask for God's guidance. I do get that. Seriously, I really do. I've been playing the "patience" game for quite a while. I pray that God would give me patience and guidance. It's His timing, but how much longer will it take? How much older do I have to be? How many more internships will it take? How many more "no's" and "we're looking for someone with more experiences" will it take?
I'm to the point where I'm considering moving back home to Oklahoma with my parents. Yeah, I'm married. It will be 3 years in June... and we still don't have a home. We still don't have a job. This is not how I saw God's plan working in my life.
I know this whole post may sound immature and counterproductive to me finding a job. I've been advised to not explode with my feelings of rejection and getting the run-around. I understand why. A church might not want to hire me because of some flare-up where I express my frustration. That's fine. I get it. I don't want my current frustration to come across to a potential employer as a negative for hiring me. Maybe they'll understand my situation a little better, and possibly see my desire, passion, and tears of wanting to work with kids, teaching them about God's love and grace.
This game I've been playing has taken it's toll on me. Especially this year... I have been sick more than ever. It's starting to effect me physically. I still have energy and time and desire, I just don't have a home. A place to call my own. Children to call mine (Children's ministry-wise). I feel like I've been walking around the desert, and I'm already sick of it. I don't want to go the full 40 of the waiting game.
This is me being dramatic. This is me venting. I apologize. I ask that you pray for me. I ask that you pray for Holly. I ask that you pray that God's will be done in our lives. We have opened our hearts, our minds, and our lives to do His will... and it seems like life is going nowhere as of now. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's harder for me, because I'm critical. I would like to be optimistic, for that's what I'm supposed to be... but it's hard right now to do so.
And if you've read this, thanks. I know it's boring, and you will have your opinions, as you are entitled to... but just know that I will not give up. Call. Email. Facebook. Text.... whatever you want to do, if you feel the need.
Much love,
Clint
I have been waiting for quite a while for a job to pop up, a church I can go work in, a ministry I can build up, tear down, rebuild, create, anything... just a chance to succeed and a chance to grow. I haven't been given that opportunity, and it's bothering me to the point where I'm venting to no one in cyberland.
Here it is, March 28th, the time where I should be interviewing left and right for jobs all over the country... and yet, here I am, playing this boring game. I feel like I am ready to begin my own ministry, at my own church... where I'm not an intern for the 5th time. I have the experience. I have the passion. I have the energy. I have the time. I just don't have a job.
I understand the importance of patience, and how this causes me to slow down and ask for God's guidance. I do get that. Seriously, I really do. I've been playing the "patience" game for quite a while. I pray that God would give me patience and guidance. It's His timing, but how much longer will it take? How much older do I have to be? How many more internships will it take? How many more "no's" and "we're looking for someone with more experiences" will it take?
I'm to the point where I'm considering moving back home to Oklahoma with my parents. Yeah, I'm married. It will be 3 years in June... and we still don't have a home. We still don't have a job. This is not how I saw God's plan working in my life.
I know this whole post may sound immature and counterproductive to me finding a job. I've been advised to not explode with my feelings of rejection and getting the run-around. I understand why. A church might not want to hire me because of some flare-up where I express my frustration. That's fine. I get it. I don't want my current frustration to come across to a potential employer as a negative for hiring me. Maybe they'll understand my situation a little better, and possibly see my desire, passion, and tears of wanting to work with kids, teaching them about God's love and grace.
This game I've been playing has taken it's toll on me. Especially this year... I have been sick more than ever. It's starting to effect me physically. I still have energy and time and desire, I just don't have a home. A place to call my own. Children to call mine (Children's ministry-wise). I feel like I've been walking around the desert, and I'm already sick of it. I don't want to go the full 40 of the waiting game.
This is me being dramatic. This is me venting. I apologize. I ask that you pray for me. I ask that you pray for Holly. I ask that you pray that God's will be done in our lives. We have opened our hearts, our minds, and our lives to do His will... and it seems like life is going nowhere as of now. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's harder for me, because I'm critical. I would like to be optimistic, for that's what I'm supposed to be... but it's hard right now to do so.
And if you've read this, thanks. I know it's boring, and you will have your opinions, as you are entitled to... but just know that I will not give up. Call. Email. Facebook. Text.... whatever you want to do, if you feel the need.
Much love,
Clint
August 1-11
The back to school hoopla has come and gone.
Now that summer is over, things are much easier. VBS ended it all, and now it's a nice little relaxer time for me. Joy took off on vacation again, to Colorado for a week... and I'm still stuck at work.
I want to work somewhere just long enough to enjoy the benefits of long, frequent vacations. It seems like everyone on staff here goes on a week-long vacation about every month. That might be an exaggeration, but it's actually not far off from the truth.
My work load has decreased, but I have kept myself busy. Making things better around here isn't easy to do when there is no budget ($$$) to work with. I have some ideas for making things easier, technology-wise, for the children's ministry. I want to build a little soundbooth for our main room. We use a little push-in cart to haul in the soundboard, projector, computer, monitors... etc... and it feels like I'm one of two people who know how to operate such a simple sound system. I'll make the soundbooth with instructions and all. It'll be a nice little upgrade. The only problem... money. We just don't have it. It's insane that a 1200 average attendance Sunday doesn't seem to have a dime to spare. It's a little frustrating that we've had to cut the budget twice already since I've been here. Insanity, I tell you! Regardless, I'm hoping to make it work.
The Sunday morning curriculum we've started is called "Pier Pressure"... made by the people working with Craig Jutila over at Empowering Kids. It seems like this curriculum is a little shallow and quickly put together. It's disappointing, based on the previous stuff we used (Pair O' Bulls). The kids are NOT reacting well with this 4-week Pier Pressure series. It'll be over soon...
Wednesday nights ARE going to start, despite the budget cut. Joy decided the only thing she could cut was the Wednesday night programming for the kids, but Bill scraped up some money out of some other budget... so it's back on! ...the only thing, we gotta find something to do. I'm thinking Fruits of the Spirit? We'll see. I'll run it by Joy when she gets back.
Things are headed into the fall, and it's a nice transition from the hectic summer. Also, the 11th is the official end to my internship, as required by MCC, so yeah. It's nice to not have to keep track of that... and keep track of the journal. :)
The end of the summer, beginning of fall... it's been crazy, but I'm glad to move onto something new and different, because I've never done anything outside of the insane summer internships. It'll be nice to see how things continue to go, after the summer, from the administrative point-of-view. Tip o' de cap. Adios.
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