marriage is right around the corner

...44 days away.
holy crap. am i ready for this?
I AM.
but really? really ready to be committed for life? to normalize everything to the point of bordem? i don't want our being married and around each other to lose its spark. it's fun. i want to have the intimacy that comes with marriage, the love and support we give each other. i want this marriage to be everything i've ever dreamed of... but when i talk to others about marriage, i mostly hear negative things. or oh good luck with thats and such. it's hard work, i understand that. i just hope that i don't turn into a bitter person towards marriage. i want the innocence and youthfulness of our dating period and engagement period to remain. i don't know really what else to say.
it's gonna be fun. i know that. i want to enjoy our gettin hitched. i just am a little worried about the happily ever after part. it's gonna be rough. i'm not stepping into a high-paying job. it's cheap. it's work. it's exhausting. i know that. i just want her to have the best. that's all i guess.